It's a been a minute. Over the last few months, I have written a few things (but published nothing) but I just didn't have the drive like I used to. But I'm getting it back. I'm picking up the pieces of my life and trying to find meaning and purpose again. I might share more on what that may look like in the coming weeks. God is putting some things on my heart that I'm trying to figure out what He means. What He is guiding me towards. And what that looks likes.
For me though, writing in therapeutic. I also find it helpful looking back on what I've written and looking at where I am now. How I've grown. How God is healing me. How I'm picking up my pieces and allowing God to make something good, from something very, very bad. Most days I don't see anything good yet but I know it's coming.
Over the last few months, I have really put my focus into seeking God. Finding Him in ways that I haven't seen Him before. Using this to strengthen my faith, my understanding and using it for healing. I have developed a good habit of reading my bible on a much more regular basis than I ever have. Psalm is what I am working through right now and I can apply so much of it to my life. I also almost only listen to Christian music. I have been reading Christian books to strength my understanding of certain topics (mainly Heaven) and I have Christian child loss podcasts that I listen to. I am also changing my prayer life to have more regular conversations with God, throughout my day.
I have a lot of work to do. Prayer is something I still really struggle with. But I'm okay with that because I know that I am putting in the effort. I know that by doing this, I will continue to strength it. Learn from it. Grow.
My moto lately has been: "One day at a time. One step at a time".
I don't need to look towards anything beyond today. For me, it becomes very overwhelming and causes me to tailspin out. So I do the next, right thing and focus on what I am doing today, while trying not to focus on what tomorrow might look like.